Saturday, October 15, 2005


It has happened to everyone. Those moments when you start wondering why we are here and you concentrate so hard that you almost flip out. Those moments when we think about our existence (in the grandest sense of the word) and almost begin to cry we become so frightened. Some people become obsessed with this. I know I have been at times. I have read almost any book I could get my hands on that I thought would provide some insight into why we are here. Some people devote their entire life to this search, such as monks and saints. Some people it only dawns on every now and again and some people flat do not care. I am speaking here of the hopelessness of not knowing. The panic feeling that overcomes you when you concentrate on this subject too deeply. It is ok. And here is why....

I went to see laser Pink Floyd at the University of Louisville Friday night. Floyd happenes to be my favorite band of all time so it had a profound impact on me. This wasn't just some cheesy light show. It was done with a sense of what the group was trying to accomplish with their album. Somewhere in the middle of the light show I had the intense feeling of well being. I knew that there is something going on in this life bigger than we can fathom and that my search for the truth is not in vain. The thing is, I know that I would not have appreciated this feeling without the many times I have felt hopelessness as described above. It truly takes experiencing the opposite of something to fully appreciate it.

I also believe that it is human nature to take things for granted. At one point in my life I could not walk for three months but rarely do I think about how much I appreciate walking. I think that people adapt to their current conditions. This is why the revelation of "Everything has a purpose" cannot be held for more than a second. It must be let go or it is not fully appreciated. Likewise, the opposite (hopelessness) must still be experienced to allow us to fully appreciate meaningfullness. Not only must it be experienced, but it must be experienced without the idea of everything being ok in the picture at all.

However, if you simply hold onto these moments when you know everything is ok, Such as, the eyes of your soul mate, the sunset, your child, or the laser pink floyd show maybe the feeling of hopelessness will fade more quickly next time. We are here for some purpose and if you think we are not, thank you for representing the opposite, so I don't have too.


Blogger fooiemcgoo said...

that was a good post.

it makes me feel small when all i write about is silly shit.

11:48 AM  
Blogger Bean said...

I'm sorry, but I cannot comment on this blog for fear that I may slip into an uncontrolable downward spiral into depression.

10:00 AM  
Blogger Bleach n Sheets said...

I understand. Please see "War Monger/Tree Head".

11:22 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are starting to sound like b. horne.

12:14 PM  
Blogger fooiemcgoo said...

the more i think about it the more suspisious i become that you had this ephiany while at a pink floyd concert.

3:02 PM  
Blogger Bleach n Sheets said...

I am confused by the last two comments, equally.

3:27 PM  
Blogger fooiemcgoo said...

dont play coy.

4:48 PM  
Blogger Tara said...

this is all very interesting. are you coming to texas?

9:46 PM  
Blogger Bleach n Sheets said...

I am coming to Texas!! Looking forward to it! I will try to bring a simple drum set down with me.

12:02 PM  
Blogger Tara said...

Yay! Don't go to any trouble with the drums. It will be fun.

12:23 PM  
Blogger Tara said...

Hey Brad, do you or your brother have a string of chimes you could bring down? We just need them for one part of one song...don't really want to spend the money just for that.

6:47 PM  
Blogger Bleach n Sheets said...

My dad might, I will check and let you know.

11:23 AM  
Blogger Bean said...

Send me an email so I have your email address. benschyatgmaildotcom.

8:41 AM  
Anonymous bigD said...

blog more blogs

3:14 PM  
Blogger fooiemcgoo said...

blog more blogs

5:31 PM  
Anonymous B.Horne said...

"you are starting to sound like b. horne"

Whats that supposed to mean???

great post bleach!

10:44 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"you are starting to sound like b. horne"

and what is that supposed to mean?

nice post B L E A C H!!!!!!


10:50 AM  
Blogger Little Pepe' said...

"you are starting to sound like b. horne"

whats that all about?

(this is the third time i've tried to respond, so if three post pop up my bad)

6:11 PM  

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